Charlie appreciation post.
OH FINALLY I GET WHY DEAN JUST WENT “i know”…. I THOUGHT THAT WAS SUCH A BELLENDISH THING TO SAY.
BUT DO YOU REALLY UNDERSTAND?
DO YOU!?
*FLIES OFF INTO SPACE AND CRASH LANDS ON YAVIN 4*
See though, this is the thing that fucking slays me about Jensen’s acting. Look at that little sniff in the second gif: this is a man who loses everyone around him. All he’s got is his little brother and a broken angel. And now, here’s Charlie, who in another life could’ve been his best friend or his little sister. And he loves her, he wants to protect her, he can practically imagine having her around everyday in the Bat Cave. And she’s helped him so much, bringing up the Apocalypse and all the things they’ve already overcome, she’s helped him come to grips with the fact that family’s so goddamn precious. Even when it hurts to hold on, you don’t fucking let go. And Dean already has so little left to hold on to and Charlie’s practically becoming family. It pains Dean to see her go, knowing she might be out there facing the dangers of the world alone. Dean really is the fucking Batman, all husky voices and proclamations of “working alone” while he has Batgirl/Oracle and all the Robins and (sometimes) Catwoman and Alfred. He doesn’t realize how much family he has around him all the time: the Harvelles, Garth, Bobby, Krissy, Cas, Frank, Benny, etc. All these people that he has lost at one point or another, or is in danger of losing. So when he kisses her forehead and sniffs, you know he’s trying to hold it all back, everything, and he will be strong because that’s what the Winchesters do.
I’m going to go cry in a corner now because this show is not fucking fair.
I knew, as soon as I saw the still of that hug with Dean’s hand on the back of her head, that it wasn’t the happy kind of hug. That something was WRONG, something Dean couldn’t fix, and it was breaking his heart that he couldn’t.
Because I know that hug from Dean’s side—I’ve done that same thing, right down to the kiss, so many times when there’s been something my husband or my kids are going through that I can’t do anything about and not even a hug is going to make them feel better.
When there’s no way to protect them from whatever’s troubling them. When I am completely helpless to MAKE IT BETTER.
And if I could reach through the screen, that’s the exact kind of hug I’d be giving Dean. Dammit.
